11 months

I keep thinking about what I was doing at this time last year.  But I haven't thought about it being 11 months since Mayah was born.  I've skipped October in my mind and I've jumped to her birthday in November.  I thought about my birthday.  I went to work remembering how my birthday was last year-when I was so happy and excited and there wasn't a shadow over anything.  This year was the first birthday I've worked in 12 years.  I knew that I couldn't stay home lost in my own thoughts, memories and sorrows.  I'm thankful for my co-workers who distracted me from my own thoughts.  I am so thankful for my husband who did everything he could to remind me that my birthday could still be a celebration.