Seven months

Baby Mayah has been dancing with the angels for 7 long months.  I am amazed by time. 
Sometimes it seems like I was holding her yesterday.  And sometimes it just seems like a distant foggy dream. 
I am so thankful for the pictures that we have.  I am so thankful for our precious family and friends who were there when Mayah was born and who thought about bringing a camera.  It was the furthest thing from my mind.  I am so thankful for the beautiful framed family photo from Mayah's auntie.  I am thankful for the dear friend who sang such a beautiful and worshipful hymn on the night of Mayah's birth. 

When Christ shall come, With shouts of acclamation,

And take me home,

What joy shall fill my heart!

Then I shall bow In humble adoration

And there proclaim, "My God, how great Thou art!"

 

Father's Day

Honoring my beloved husband who loved his daughter with his whole heart. He loved her so much that when she was born, he took her in his arms and offered her into the arms of her Father in heaven.

Honoring you on Father's Day, my love.

Another month

It has been 6 months since we held our baby girl.  Actually, 6 months and 2 days.  I had a heart breaking moment a few weeks ago when I realized that I was forgetting my baby's face.  Beagz said that is part of the way God created us so that we will be able to continue living life.  And living life is what we're doing.  I think of Mayah so many times during the day, but we just keep going on.  I can find joy within me for others.  I see more beautiful things in life and the gray is being filled in with color.  I keep in mind the idea that we are in God.  I imagine myself cradled in His arms just as I would have cradled Mayah.  There is great comfort in that picture.  I still wonder what God's plan was in all of this heartache.  Will I ever know why?